Ellie

 

Dedicated

To My Beautiful German Shepard Ellie.

I miss you more and more everyday

I remember the first time our eyes locked onto each other on a Sunday morning. You were no bigger than the size of my hand. Mum, my stepdad and I walked away saying we will think about getting you because our gorgeous husky Sky has already fallen in love with you, just as quickly as we are. We walked ten steps before turning back and saying you’re now part of our family. We showered you with love and affection for ten gorgeous years. Everyone loves you, you are the biggest baby to ever bark at your own shadow. You loved and protected all of us so fearlessly.

Ellie, you give the best kisses, best cuddles and you are the best player of fetch I have ever seen.

Every time I visit, you get so excited, you go straight under my legs like you always do, you cry out of excitement as I give you cuddles. I repeatedly tell you how much I love you. I tell you how much of a good girl you are. 

I walked into work, like usual and I get a phone call. Mum’s broken voice echoing through my ears, and my world joins mums into a blur, into a sinking pit in the middle of my stomach. My world stops spinning in that moment and I’m all alone, I take nothing in. 

‘I got some bad news babe, Ellie got really poorly this morning, I’m so sorry baby, she’s gone’

The rest of the day is a blur.

I leave work, and a feral screech leaves my throat, once I get into my car. One of my best friends of 10 years gone.

Just

Like

That.

Tears seem to flow with ease, over my whimpers and non-human shrieks as I slowly drive back to mums house. I park up trying to process and compose the unexpected shock of loosing our Ellie.

I stand outside the front door, I break down knowing I'm not going to getting my usual welcome when I come into the house. Ellie won't be crying, Ellie won't be giving kisses and Ellie won't be there.

I'm still in complete shock, numb with heartache.

Ellie I miss you more than you'll ever know. You be a good girl for me until we see each other again. You look after everyone who is already there. I love you.